No I really did go to the farm, it's not a metaphor

[xp_wildchild]

I'm literally writing this in an uber, so like.

Okay that's a lie I wrote most of this on the plane, I'm editing it in the uber.

Couple of weeks ago I lost my temper on the journals. I am not doing okay. Not because I lost my temper - well, not just because I lost it but I guess that is part of it.

I've been at short ends for months. Anyone who has been in the Danger Room with me has seen it. I think if I tried to explain why it would take up a lot of space here. I also don't think I want to explain why.

I just want to apologize for losing my temper. I let down people who trusted me not to fly off the handle or say some extremely stupid things that made this place feel unsafe.

I have talked to people I trust about what happened. You know who you are. I'm doing too much for one guy and I am going to take a breather from some of it. Not quit - I promised not quitting, but setting limits and making sure I am not the only guy doing all the things I was trying to do. Even once I get better mental health.

No amount of editing is going to make this any better so I'm posting it imperfectly. I've already edited it enough times that this uber driver is getting a pretty big tip because we are siting outside Kirby's and I asked him to wait a couple minutes. He's a good dude.

Comments

[xp_hawkeye]

Welcome back again, bro.

All weekend pool party. I've been grilling, but you're welcome to take over if you want. And if you need some help with whatever - boundaries or making sure other people are helping with things, I'm down to assist. Got your back and all that.

[xp_darcy]

I gotchu bro. And have other comments but they're for in person.

Gran LOVES you. Congrats, you're family now. Official like. 🥰❤️

[xp_wildchild]

Oh, yeah, she sent me home with an entire insulated grocery bag of stuff, half is for you.

[xp_darcy]

She's the best. And so is her food.

[xp_legion]

Welcome back. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help.

[xp_dominion]

No bro. But if you need to talk or just hide out, let me know.

[xp_dust]

It's good to see you back! Let's do breakfast together soon? Even if I am done with the flying, I enjoy those mornings.

[xp_loa]

Glad to see you're back, lemme know if you need anything now that you're back. With kids actually here, I've decided to take a half-step back in DX, so always happy to help with anything.

[xp_jubilee]

Limits are a hard thing to like, admit to. We hate imagining we can't do everything and never have to sit down and just breathe. It totally sucks getting it forcibly pointed out to us.

Come by and say hi when you get a moment. I'll buy you something made out of pineapple.